...since grandma has passed. I really have not thought about it but I know she is no longer here. I guess I still do not want to accept it. I am basically going on as if it is another day and I just have not called her. Its like a dream, and I just can't seem to wake up. Is she really gone? I just received a card and plant from work and I appreciate it course it still has not sunk in. I do not know why, I was there at the viewing. I felt her cold skin, I saw the coffin close, and I was there when we were at the gravesite. What else am I suppose to do? I'll just continue on till I either break own, or see what happens on Oct. 24 when she is not there to celebrate her 83rd birthday.
Anyways, I will be returning to work next Monday. I have to fix so that tomorrow is covered. I have been looking for another job. I have ideas, but then again I am not sure. I have been at BCBS for 6 1/2 years now and I am afraid I will not be able to adapt. I have heard from others who have left that they are happier because of less stress or either they are experiencing stress but it is different. I have had the last two weeks off and I guess I have not really left relax since I know I have to return to work. Maybe something will come up later.
Andrew started his new job as correctional officer today. We will find out later when he returns what orientation is like. I am excited and hope he enjoys this. He deserves to be the one brining in the most $$ to support us. Well, its over 100 degrees outside and I know I should be doing something but I do not feel like it. I'm going to go chow down on some strawberries and sugar. Hahahaha.
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