Week 3

Wow! Kolton is 3 weeks old today. I don't even know what day it is since the fact I am losing sleep and trying to keep up with him.

Andrew returned to work for 6 days on Tuesday and I think Kolton knows his daddy isn't here. The last few days, K.C wouldn't do his normal napping hours of 3-4 hours between feedings but more like an hour to an hour and half. Plus he is constantly hungry. I have read that he is now at a growth spurt since he is 3 weeks old so that could be the problem. With this new sleeping pattern, I am not really able to take a shower or much less fix meals for myself as he does not like to be put down while he is napping. I hope he does not get into the habit of being picked up. I wait till he is basically red and screaming so much that he is getting to the point where he can't breathe. I'm not doing it to torture him, its just that he starts out with his fake crying and I'm in the middle of something trying to hurry up and finish before he reaches his climax.

Andrew did come home last night to get a few things and helped out what he could but now he is gone again. He won't be home again till Monday night. Speaking of work, I confirmed that my short term disability was approved till June 18 while my FMLA was approved to July 1. Well, money is important so that just means that as of June 21, I'll be returning to work. So sad but I have been off for almost 2 months. Can't believe its been that long. My boy will be 6 weeks old by then. A friend of ours, Jenn, has offered to watch him while both Andrew and I are working. This is great so I do not have to change shifts since I'm getting the differential on my shift. Andrew has also asked for me to look for a backup plan just in case and I have found two other mother's who are state certified for childcare and could work around my schedule (since I wouldn't be able to pick him up till 12:15 or 12:20 at the latest). If I was to change shifts, I'd probably first see about getting on the latest day shift which I think is from 10AM - 7PM but I don't want to look into that right now. Andrew is going to try to request to the local units in September.

As we end May, I know I need to get out more. Poor K.C, he is so pasty white that I know people would not think he is my child. We are also down to just Toby (I do miss Abby but she needed a family who could spend more time with her and play with her) and I know he is getting depressed as well. He does have his appointment here shortly for his annual shots and I may also request them to look at his ears. I know he has bad allergies and they flare up once or twice a month. He also needs to be bathed really well and walked.

Gosh, so much I need to get into and I hope to get on some kind of routine as well. I got one of my goals done which was to arrange K.C's room a bit. We are still needing some shelves and I want to get the wooden letters to spell his name but the major things are done. Now I need to get the rest of the house in order before I return to work but I just do not have the energy. I want to start losing weight but I have froze our gym memberships at this time till I return to work and figure out a schedule. I'm hoping that next month or by July, Andrew will allow me to purchase the Wii so maybe I can do somethings at home while K.C naps. We also need to save money so we can make a trip up to Ohio to see K.C's other half of the family. I was hoping to get to do it while he is still young but we might not be able to do that till maybe August or little later. Maybe it would be best while he is a little older to make a trip like that.

As for me, I am just lacking some sleep but I'm still up and moving around. I have only gotten stressed out once since we've been on our own and it was not a full blow up. I'm still kind of watching signs if I ever do go more into post partum depression but I feel fine. Just trying to get things done, relax, and make sure my school work is caught up. I do need to get on those letters and send the pictures to family members so I better get that done. Sorry they are so late, things are just busy and I'm trying to organize myself but its not working. More updates to come when they do....